I am contacting neurologists throughout my region to try to get help for my Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder, but I have had no success, despite the fact that DSPD is a neurological disorder. They will treat insomnia and dementia. But not the neurological problem that I have. And it is not that uncommon. One out of 600 adults suffers from some form of Circadian Rhythm disorder.
The other day, I came home from CVS and left my car running in the driveway. I leave doors ajar and faucets running. My cognitive functions are rapidly deteriorating. I no longer know when to take my meds, since day and night, for me, are scrambled.
I have never been closer to a mental breakdown. I almost welcome it if I could get drugged into oblivion.
It has been three months since my last post. I have spent these months searching for medical help with my Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder. None of the so-called “sleep” doctors I’ve been to ever mentioned the possibility of DSPD. In desperation, I just sent an email out to a neuropsychologist because the stress has affected my usually-easy-going temperament, and I don’t even like myself any more.
Also, during these few months, the family brought a rescue dog home. He was smart, sweet, and cute, but he would not stop biting when playing. He went back to the rescue. So, last week, they brought home a cute, sweet, gentle rescue kitten, who is still sequestered in the upstairs bedrooms because their current prissy cat refuses to have any of it.
My plans, after the holidays, is to go the shelter and get a senior cat who just wants to snuggle. I need the companionship. I need the touching.
I need to find a way out of his personal sleep hell. It has affected my digestion, because when I eat depends on when I sleep. When should I take my meds? I often don’t even know what day it is. It’s making me crazy.
ADDENDUM: My daughter just told me that when I got home from the store yesterday, I left my car running in the driveway. It’s a good thing my grandson noticed the car’s lights were on. I am definitely losing it, fast.