Back in 1995, as my mother was diligently adding to her collection of used aluminum pie tins (I just threw out 43 of them that were hidden in the back of her closet), my son (then AKA Slowdog; now AKA b!X) was diligently collecting signatures for his “Hands Off! the Net” petition.
I think of this today because of the death of Senator James Exon, who tried, unsuccessfully, thanks in part to b!X, to introduce the original Communications Decency Act.
The October 5, 1995 issue of Rolling Stone Magazine had this to say about Slowdog/b!X as he led off their article on “Ten Things You Can Do to Make A Difference.” There’s no link anywhere to this article; of course, I still have the hard copy, which begins:
Slowdog’s hanging out upstairs at the @ Cafe in New York’s East Village, sipping cup after cup of coffee and tap-tap-tapping into the Internet on one of the computer terminals that looms over every table like a television set. Slowdog is 25 years old, with black pants, black t-shirt, black baseball cap, black sneakers, long black eyelashes, and a face that sees very little sun.
Born Christopher Frankonis, Slowdog used to work at the New York Public Library and log on, stop at the @ Cafe and log on, traipse back to his basement flat in Brooklyn, NY, and log on, surfing the Internet that runs like a vast river through wired America.
No real point, no particular politics, just another college dropout hooked on the Net. A kid from upstate New York with a mouse and a quick wit.
Then came Sen. James Exon, D. Neb, and his Communications Decency Act. Exon introduced a bill this March that proposes to tame the Internet. This senator wanted to pasteurize Slowdog’s wild river of words and symbols, criminalize the transmission of lewd and lascivious language, make the world safe for June Cleaver.
An activist was born.
“Instead of understanding a new medium, they want to extend an old law from television,” Slowdog says. “I’ts going to chill speech, make users liable for content. I knew I had to go beyond my insular little world on the Net. Here is my shot.”
Slowdog and a half-dozen young activists worked with the Center for Democracy and Technology in Washington, D.C., and started a computer petition. They hoped for 10,000 signatures in three days. Two and a half months later the tally stood at 121,284, with support ranging from the libertarian Cato Institute to First Amendment absolutists. “Man, we were getting 1,000 signatures an hour,” Slowdog says.
In late April a messenger walked into the office of Sen. Larry Pressler, R.S.D, whose committee was holding hearings on the bill, with a 1,000-sheet printout containing the names of the petition’s signers. “To a politician, that’s like carrying a political loaded gun,” one staffer recalls. The petition came on top of the e-mail messages and faxes that Pressler’s office had been getting for weeks.
Slowdog takes a hit of his latte and smiles. “I don’t know that I was ever political before,” he says. “But this was so severe and showed so little of understanding of something new. All of a sudden I had to put up or shut up.”
b!X has not shut up since. I’m afraid, though, if he doesn’t get some advertisers, he just might have to find another way to keep getting his words out.
no Maine in June for me
June is the month during which I usually go to Maine for the week of the Summer Solstice. I am usually accompanied by one, two, or three of my good women friends. We missed the summer of 02 but 03a, b, c, and 04 were worth blogging about. [For some reason, some punctuations in those old posts show up as question marks; I don’t have the energy to go in and fix them. Sorry.]
No Maine for me this year. I’m packing for our big move out of what Old Horsetail Snake calls “the old folks home.”
For all the effort I’ve made to try NOT to be like my mother, here I am confronted by the fact that I’m almost as bad a pack rat as she. This time I keep taking bags of stuff to the Salvation Army. But my mother won’t part with a thing. Tonight I found a box she packed filled with such things as plastic lids from various long-finished snack containers; five dish washing brushes, never used; the top of a coffee pot that she no longer has; an old greasy broken wooden hour glass egg timer; the lid I’ve been looking for that belongs to one of my pots…etc. etc.
Me? I just have hundreds of pens and pencils and videotapes of movies I taped from tv.
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On this June night that I am not in Maine, I go out and steal willow branches from the tree on the far side of the building where I live. A waning sickle moon pierces the thick black sky above the pond where bullfrogs are singing each other to sleep. I slip inside the dark heart of the willow….
Here in my apartment,the branches are soaking in a pan of water. Tomorrow I will strip off the leaves and form the pliable willow stalks into circles. I have gathered the materials I will use to make willow talismans. My hope is to start them all on the Solstice, June 21.
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My former colleague and continuous friend who owns the cottage I stay at in Maine has offered me time there this month for free. She reads my blog; sees the stress. I wish I could take her up on her offer. But I’m packing. I’m packing for two. And I’m doing the ol’ “four times a day one drop in each eye of four eye drops” for my mother, who had her second cataract out earlier this week and now keeps marveling at all of the different colors of green of the trees around where we live.
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no Maine for me
just a waning sickle moon
and willow branches
waiting for magic
The lure of the smart, seductive sociopath.
For the first time in her life, a woman I know is seeing a therapist. This is a woman who, sans therapy, survived living in foster homes as a child, her husband’s premature death, her own bout with cancer, and the fiery destruction of her home.
But the seductive sociopath broke her heart in enough pieces to require help putting it back together.
I think that the character Jack that Thomas Hayden Church plays in the movie Sideways has that conscienceless charm of the narcissistic sociopath.
It’s so easy for a woman to get obsessed over a sociopathic lover. He plays his part with infinite finesse and plays you even better. It’s like he’s born knowing exactly what to say and do to get you to painfully yearn for more.
At least I managed to get some decent poetry written as a result of my stint with one of those.
I think of my feisty and bright woman friend who had the recent misfortune to be hurt by a seductive sociopath. I know that she thinks she should have known better.
Uh uh.
All my life’s a circle.
Mary Travers of Peter, Paul, and Mary 60s folk fame sang this, my favorite song, on one of her albums — which I wish I still had but I don’t.
All My Life’s a Circle
All my life’s a circle, sunrise and sundown
The moon rolls through the night time
Till the day break comes around
All my life’s a circle, but I can’t tell you why
The seasons spinning round again
The years keep rolling by.
It seems like I’ve been here before, I can’t remember when
But I got this funny feeling
That we’ll all be together again
There’s no straight lines that make up my life
And all my roads have bends
There’s no clear cut beginnings, and so far no dead ends…..
I’m thinking of these lyrics now because, as a result of getting in touch with a college classmate of mine, I’ve been able to get in touch with a few more through him.
I have to admit, I get very nostalgic when I think of my college days, during which I pursued fun and frolic a bit more than I pursued academic achievement.
One of my recent old-classmate-e-interchanges reminded me how the girls from my sorority would gather in the Student Union on Sunday evenings and take over the place with our dancing. Mostly the Lindy. With any guy brave enough to take us on. And if there were no takers, with each other. I so miss dancing.
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Circles are comforting — full of mythic meaning.
I am making circles made of willow branches. Within them I will weave special symbols and give each of my closest 6 women friends atalisman before I move away. It’s what I do.
There’s no straight lines that make up my life
And all my roads have bends
There’s no clear cut beginnings, and so far no dead ends
Blog It and They Will Come.
I have to say that I’ve been contacted by the most interesting people who Googled something they were looking for or interested in and found exactly what they wanted in one of my posts.
Take, for instance, Canadian Carrie Watkins, who found this 2003 post of mine because she was trying to track down a particular photo of “Witches at Tea.” She was doing the same thing I was at the time — superimposing the faces of the women in her life over the faces of the old ladies. We’ve kept in touch on occasion, and the last occasion was her sharing of her blog experiment in creative writing: A Witch’s Corner. I promised I would go over and keep up with her story — which I didn’t for all kinds of lazy reasons, so now I will tonight.
And then there’s artist Jan Hurst (from Indiana, I think), who also was looking for the “Witches at Tea” photo to use in a collage. I really like Jan’s work. Some of it reminds me of Laurie Doctor’s wonderful pieces that combine calligraphy and mythic images.
Doncha just love Google??!
The Sensible and Sympathetic Mr. Smith
No, not Mr. Brad Pitt Smith.
The Mr. Smith to whom I’m referring is Adam Smith, whose ideas about free-market competition are associated with the belief that self-interest brings about a healthy economy. His book, “The Wealth of Nations,” is often referred to as the text or prescription for laissez-faire capitalism. “It is not from the benevolence of the butcher, the brewer or the baker that we expect our dinner,” Smith wrote, “but from their regard to their own self-interest.”
The above quote is from my favorite local newspaper columnist, Diane Cameron, who, yesterday, had a piece about Adam Smith, since it was his birthday.
She goes on to say:
Adam Smith did understand that. While he wrote about the importance of self-interest, we forget that he was neither a politician nor an economist, but rather, by training and practice, a moral philosopher. He never advocated not caring for the poor; he presumed that a community — whether that meant a village or town or a country — took care of its needy. Smith made his name with another book before “The Wealth of Nations.” His first book was “A Theory of Moral Sentiments,” written in 1759, in which he described the role of sympathy in society and advocated for the need of it to maximize the “efficiency of care in a community.”
Smith’s favorite metaphor, the “invisible hand,” came from that earlier book in which he presumed a basis of equality among men. It was that emphasis on equality that made his books bestsellers in the American colonies and, hence, still part of our political consciousness.
Smith believed that “there is no place for privilege and class” in a moral economy. In Smith’s scheme, wealth meant not just business and prosperity but also charity, generosity, compassion and modesty: having a sense of what is enough.
On the same page as Cameron’s article commentary is a piece by George Richardson of the Rockefeller College of Public Affairs and Policy, “Waging a Ratio.”
Richardson suggests a way to a achieve a more equitable wage structure in which the minimum wage is tied, by a ratio, to the salaries of top CEOs. He suggests:
There are those who are troubled by soaring top management salaries while the purchasing power of average and minimum wages erode. It seems both immoral and unstable for a society to drive such a growing gap between its rich and poor. And it is a dramatic example of a kind of market failure: Top management compensation appears to be a runaway cost. The phenomenon cries out for solutions that help to control the growing disparity between rich and poor, and reduce the compensation strains on corporations without harming the strength of our economy.
So what should Congress do? Rather than focusing on short-term, stopgap maneuvers increasing the minimum wage by $1 or $2, or even $3 an hour, Congress should reach for a policy that solves both the minimum wage problem and the inequity problem once and for all, without constraining the ability of anyone to make as much money as possible.
The solution is to substitute for the minimum wage a “minimum wage ratio,” or if you prefer, a “maximum compensation ratio.”
Here’s how it might work: Congress could establish a standard for the maximum ratio of top corporate compensation to the wage and benefits package of the lowest paid worker in a firm. We could take the standard that existed in the 1970s and say the maximum compensation ratio in every firm cannot exceed, say, 30. If that’s perceived as too low (so 20th century), set the maximum ratio at 40, or even 50. But set it, and enforce it through the income tax machinery. We would then have a federally mandated “minimum wage ratio.”
To raise top management compensation, a firm would have to raise the wages of its lowest paid workers. There would be no limit, of course, to how high any wages could go. The lowest and the highest would just have to stay within the ratio.
Congress could set the ratio and forget it. No need for periodic updates, as with the minimum wage. No periods of declining purchasing power for those on the minimum wage, unless everyone is experiencing that. The policy is self-adjusting.
There are problems to work out about how such a policy could be implemented — how to value stock options, how to handle sports and entertainment salaries, how to prevent corporations from gaming the policy, and so on. But it is time to recognize that periodic boosts to the minimum wage are like pushing on a string. They don’t solve many problems in the short run and may even create some.
It’s time to stop thinking about pushing on that string, and switch to pulling on it from the other end. We should work through the implementation puzzles and set a federal minimum wage ratio policy — a maximum compensation ratio — and set a self-adjusting standard for wage equity that re-establishes rationality in wages and compensation packages and is a model for equity and efficiency for the world’s economies.
I’ll bet that Adam Smith would have liked Richarson’s sensible and sympathetic solution.
I went to college with a CIA Lie Detector
Last night I met some of my “old” sorority sisters for dinner. It is reunion weekend at SUNY/Albany, so we thought we’d have our own get together. One of the women had gotten a letter from a guy we vaguely remember from the good ol’ days. He had kept track of lots of other people from college that we all knew in common; his letter filled us in on their whereabouts. It also filled us in on the career he wound up in with the CIA. Apparently, when I was still dorking around in graduate school, trying my best to avoid the real world, John Sullivan enlisted and
…served in the US Army from 1962 to 1967 as a Staff Sergeant E-6 in military intelligence. He was trained as a Russian linguist at the Army Language School in Monterey, California. After completing the Field Operations Intelligence (case officer) course, he was assigned to Germany where he studied the German language.
The most interesting information, from my perspective, is on Amazon.com, from the reviews of his new book, Of Spies and Lies: A CIA Lie Detector Remembers Vietnam.
This offered by Publisher’s Weekly:
…Sullivan arrived in Vietnam a war hawk. After 48 months of traversing the war zone administering lie-detector tests to thousands of enemy prisoners and others, he came home a thoroughly disillusioned dove. Sullivan chronicles his change of heart by seemingly sparing few details about his work and social lives during his extended tour of duty. He paints a generally negative picture of the CIA’s war against the Vietcong. Sullivan claims that CIA operatives produced “some good information,” but that information was misused by those at the top and produced no real progress in undermining the enemy. On the social side, Sullivan readily admits that he lived the good life in Vietnam. He and his wife and child lacked for few creature comforts in the war zone….
and this from Booklist:
There is no shortage of Vietnam War memoirs, of course, but here is one with what just might be a unique perspective: the war as seen by a CIA agent responsible for polygraphing prisoners of war, potential allies, and even his own colleagues. Sullivan is not unaware of the ironies implicit in his role as polygraph specialist–a lie-detecting expert hunting truth at a time and in a place where disinformation was ubiquitous. His work took him from one end of Vietnam to the other, as well as to Cambodia, Laos, and Thailand, and his memories of the final four years of the war (1971-75) are deeply unsettling. There are no lid-blowing revelations here (like all books by former CIA employees, this one has been vetted by the agency), but the very personal story of a man confronted with the elusiveness of truth proves surprisingly moving….
I barely remember John from our college days. I have always been, after all, a peacenik. We didn’t travel in the same circles back then.
Actually, several of my sorority sisters and I didn’t really travel in the same circles either. They are the more conservative ones. But somehow, when we get together now, in our more mellow years, we enjoy each other’s company. We have a shared history of times when we were still forming who we would become. When, in those naive 1950s, we were still innocent. Some of us have stayed more innocent than others.
And we never would have pegged John Sullivan for a career detecting lies in a war zone.
journeys
Half way through the Berkshire Mountains on the Mass Pike, I noticed a band of crows circling over my car. Five minutes later, one of my back tires went flat. A minute or so later, I was pulling off the road in front of a trooper, who just happened to be parked there waiting for speeders. Another five minutes and the emergency truck arrived; another two, and I was on my way again. “Somebody up there must be watching out for you,” the trooper smiled, winking.
We had put in my daughter’s meditation garden — turning what had been a huge circle of white stones that occupied the space where the former owners once had an above ground pool into a tear-drop patio that curves into the edges of a garden (that will soon be covered with the herbs, ground covers, and grasses that we planted. Except where there’s a path leading from the patio to a bench. And except where there are rocks, a fat maternal garden hare, a watchful hedgehog [which I call a hedgehag], and a guardian gargoyle.)
My grandson and I had our own journeys to take, as we spent a long afternoon together while his folks went out to lunch and shopping for more garden plantings. We improvised little scenarios, in which he always remembered both his lines and mine. And then there were the trucks. Lots of trucks. Diggers. Excavators. Front loaders. And a truck video on which, he explained to me, there were an auger drill and an impact hammer. We were on a learning journey, and he was the teacher.
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someone was in my apartment, she says. they moved things around in my dresser. were you in here taking my gloves, she asks. she’s back. you’re back. so much for rejuvenating journeys.
off to see the Wizard
I’m leaving early tomorrow to visit the Wizard Who Can Make Me Laugh.

Or rather the goofy Munchkin.
Rain
Of course it’s raining and it’s going to rain all week. Tomorrow I’m taking my mother to my brother’s and then I’m heading out on Thursday for some R&R at my daughter’s in Massachusetts.
Perhaps we should do what the people in Fairhaven, in the rainy Pacific Northwest do: have an annual Rain Festival. Unfortunately, their last such event was spoiled by a plague of sunshine. What rotten luck.
The willows near the pond are heavy with rain. I had planned to sneak out tonight and cut/steal some willow branches to weave a “protection shield” for my daughter’s house. I will be going out there on Thursday, so I still have time when I get back from my brother’s tomorrow. Unless it’s raining then as hard as it is now.
it’s raining, it’s raining
I can’t help my complaining