I am still here because I have a “mediocre autistic” superbly articulate blogger son who got me into all of this more than two decades ago and still continues to remind me why we bloggers blog. “Because we can’t NOT.”
Most of my recent posts have been about my struggle with a Circadian Rhythm Disorder wherein I could not fall asleep — usually not until 3 or 4 am, and sometimes not at all for 24 or more hours. This went on for years, despite my suggesting to my doctors (after much reading and research) that my problem is probably a matter of brain chemistry — the lessening of the functions of the neurotransmitters responsible for the hormones that regulate mood and sleep (and many other psychological responses as well).
I tried taking amino acid supplements, which are the precursors to the production of those “happy” hormones. I also tried various herbal supplements that supposedly help with bringing on sleepiness. All to no avail.
All it took was one psychiatrist and a prescription for Abilify (added to my current anti-depressive) to solve the problem. Within a week, I was back to a “normal” sleep pattern, no longer depressed, and full of creative energy. The answer was dopamine; that’s what my neurotransmitters were failing to transmit.
While am not a big supporter of Big Pharma, and while I hate the ads on tv for depression medication, the hard truth is that Abilify is working for me. It’s almost miraculous.
It makes me angry to know that my problem could have been solved years ago, had any of my doctors thought beyond the typical environmental suggestions for fixing sleep problems.
Finding a psychiatrist was depressingly unsuccessful until I stumbled upon Talkiatry. I used Linkedin and a Google search to check out the psychiatrist to whom they assigned me and found that he had impressive credentials. He spent more than on hour with me on on a telehealth visit and discussed with me all I had been through.
I agreed to try Abilify. And, now, here I am. I continue to have follow-up telehealth visits with him as he checks in on how I am doing. So far I have no side effects, although I am having frequent very disturbing dreams. I will discuss that with him during our next virtual visit.
At age 83, I want to enjoy this last phase of my life, despite the typical aches and pains of aging. Now I can. Drugs. Sometimes you just have to.